One thing that I’ve always been, is fiercely independent. This is a good thing, but sometimes it can be a little prideful. Something I’m HORRIBLE at is asking for help. I do not like to inconvenience others, and even when I NEED help I have this whole spiral into worthlessness etc.
I think sometimes when something becomes a theme for you in your life, you need to take notice that God is trying to tell you something.
Last year when my friend went to Heaven and my Grandmother passed shortly afterwards, I was a mess. The people around me loved me beautifully. They did things for me that I didn’t even know I needed. One friend came in and cleaned my office. I received several PERFECTLY timed cards and texts. My volunteers/friends stepped up in HUGE ways for me. I felt so loved.
In the last few weeks I have had several things pop up again that made me feel a little anxious about needing to depend on others. I have been extremely humbled and thankful to those who have slid in to help without a second thought. When I apologized to people for needing help, they met me with love.
I pray that I can love others the way that I have been shown love.
1 John 4:7-8 Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.